Showing posts with label My faves. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My faves. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

We had joy! We had fun!

What is friendship? Is it wanting to hang around with someone all the time? Is it a sense of companionship which you feel when you are with someone? Is it jus a sense of security that someone out there knows you, likes you for what you are and admires you? Is it living life together by each other’s side? Is it sharing and caring for someone?

Is friendship a walk by the river hand in hand? Or a walk in the rain, with folded jeans for that little cuppa chai and masala puri that awaits you? Is it talking long hours on the phone jabbering about every little incident? Is it giving up your latest crush cuz you know your friend loves him? Is it always making time and keeping in touch? Is it what drives a weekend catch-up call across 7 seas or a lengthy STD call when on roaming?

Is it knowing that even after years of not seeing or talking to someone you can still connect within a jiffy? Is it meeting in a queue for movie tickets and feeling like you have known each other for ages? Is it spending hours together writing scripts for skits and plays? Is it spending hours planning life together, everyday? Is it about understanding that the special someone needs more airtime than you do? ..about you stepping two steps back so that the couple can get two steps closer? Is it knowing when someone needs a hug and when someone needs to be left alone?

Is it rushing to every fest in the town and celebrating in each other's company? Is it making trips across the town just to meet one last time before taking off on a weekend trip? Is it about having the comfort of discussing your screwed up love life over and over again? Is it that which makes you wake up at 5 in the morning and rush to deliver a surprise birthday cake? Is it going bankrupt but still buying the most expensive birthday gift you can?

Is it just love disguised and knocking on a different door of your heart?

It is a place that only you can fill...

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Vagabond

Picture this - Cold dark sea. Waves a hundred feet high, lashing against each other; pleasantly. Its not a stormy night. Neither is there thunder nor lightening. By a quick glance, you can feel the depth of the water. There is calm everywhere, a calm so calm that it exudes endless chaos beneath the surface. As those magical waves dance in their realm, a ship emerges from the far left of the screen. It looks merry and pretty.

A closer look shows you people, of every kind you can imagine. Beautiful people. Rejoicing. Raising a toast. Some quietly listening to soft music. Some dancing to their own sweet tunes. Mothers fussing over their little children. Men circling around the Roulette table placed right at the center of the deck. Some others huddled around the Pool table. You pause this sequence here, thinking aloud that there would not be much you would want to remember here; nothing interesting enough to hold your attention.

Seems like quite an ubiquitous scene after all... until you notice one small speck on the lower right of the screen. In the sea. Looks like some creature. You un-pause the sequence. The creature seems to be doing something animatedly. You zoom in. You see a girl? No, a woman? Curious, you zoom in further. Its a pretty brunette, possibly in her early twenties, with her hair let down, skin so fair and glowing that you can almost see the reflection of the moon on her cheeks. Eyes so sharp and soulful that you cant stop staring at them.

But, there is something amiss. Wait. What is this beautiful little thing doing here? She has fallen off that ship! Your heart races as you watch her cling onto a large chunk of wood with one hand while trying to wade her way through the water with her hand. You stare bewildered. Even after a minute of you watching her, she doesn't seem to have moved an inch.

Surprisingly, there are no shouts. No wails. No words uttered. Seems like she is trying hard to say something. Its as if she starts speaking and mid-way her words freeze and she is unable to complete whatever she began. She tries hard to speak so many times. But in vain. Slightly frowning brows betray only a wee bit of anxiety. She does not look worried that she might drown. She does not look like she is struggling to be back on the ship. It almost seems like she is there, but not so unexpectedly. You look at her and feel the pulse in your veins speed up. You don't understand what is happening.

Her face and behavior mask many an emotion but betray a dozen traits. Distinct ones. A sense of forceful determination towards something distant. Strong will. Sharp eyes pierce through the night. Those eyes glisten with hopes for the morrow to come. You watch her slowly try to move the plank she is on, along the direction of the wind. With every passing minute, she is moving farther away from where she came.

Disturbed by whatever you are seeing, you decide to step back. A few hours later, you notice the plank has in fact moved so much farther that now the ship appears like a speck. The girl has shut her beautiful eyes and she seems to be lying on the plank. Is she dead? Unconscious?

You realize its neither. She has simply slept off. Waiting for her plank to take her ashore. Waiting for the morning light to caress her gentle skin and fill her with more hope.

Its only a cold dark night.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

TURN OFFS!!

Comparisons!!
What makes people assume that I am someone meant to be compared with everyone else around me??! The fact that you see and hear 2 different ppl means they are different! To me it makes absolutely no sense to have a daily report of how much better I am than anyone else or how bad anyone else is in comparison to me!!! Keep the ratings to yourself..!! I aint no Soap Opera!!


Personal Comments...
No, I’m not refering to gentle comments about my looks/words/emotions etc... There is a line I draw... just like you..! , and I never promised you that our lines would coincide... If you can’t see that line, ask me... Ask me before you attempt to cross it!! Cuz it’s my space and me you are talkin about, and I have every right to stop you from speakin nonsense about me, especially when you choose to do it in front of me..!!
All those who can’t stop saying that I’m thin, watch where you are looking!!


Horny men and their remarks...!
Millions of things turn me off in this category..!
Married men and sometimes with kids even, but who still cant stop drooling, staring and sizing up every younger woman, no no, every woman, who is in sight..!! Yucky! I pity your wives, you despos!
Gangs of guys who take up the social cause of placing themselves at the dark corner of the street and judging every girl of the locality that passes them in their spare time of 10 hours per day... Oh how lucky they are! ‘Ooh! Check out her butt man!’, ‘she has such a great figure’... and some so so cheap, it’s inapt to even mention them here..! Get a life guys...!
Cat calls... up close encounters... trying to touch and feel arbitrary women in public places... Cheaply worded whispers right into the ears.. the list goes on... and on and on... what is it?? Some kinda cheap thrill? Or these guys think they can actually manage to seduce me in those 5 seconds where they are 1 foot away from me?? Sorry to disappoint you... But, derrogatory doesn’t really qualify as charming or mesmerzing to me!
Or maybe it’s merely a sense of prowess that they can get away with saying the sleaziest things about a woman and still wander on the streets freely??!!
Whatever that may be, it fails to justify anything...!


Anything put on... Be it an accent... an attitude... a remark... anything fake, except jewellery, mostly turns me off completely...!
For instance, I can’t understand how an Indian who has lived all his life in India and lived abroad just for a few days/months can acquire an accent that is so not Indian... I have known atleast a dozen people who have lived for decades in the US of A and none of them really have a heavy American accent...! It seems extremely phony, unnatural and trying to be ‘yo’!
A fake smile turns me off more than the absence of a smile!! A remark leaning towards buttering somoene falls into the same category...
So does hypocracy... can’t comprehend the necessity or reason behind it (if there is one) for someone to be insincere about things... I can, to quite an extent, accept diplomacy cuz that is not about faking something; it’s about revealing only the required... unlike hypocracy...


South/North Indian complexes.
It is one of those things which the modern world claims to not have...! Sorry to say, it doth still florish..!
I have heard sooo many guys from the North making fun of the south Indians and vice versa, over names, colour, habits, culture, music (?!!), language and pronunciations etc etc...
And mind you, I’m not referring to the uneducated section.. I’m talking about IIT/IIM passouts, people working in the IT industry etc...
To me all those things are far too shallow...
It is infact sometimes as bad as racial discrimination... to judge and treat someone based on superficial aspects such as colour, dressing is discrimination...


MCPs/men with fragile egos.
If you havent realised yet, men with inflated egos don’t appeal to women anymore... (I can’t understand how they ever did..! anyways!)
If you want a woman to listen to everything you say, bow down to your whims and fancies, clean your house behind you, cook for you and look pretty all the time, you should either look for a robot, a puppet or better still, a combination of the two!
FYI: I am not a feminist. People are people. Male or female hardly matters.

Namma Bengalooru!
If there is one thing that really gets on my nerves, no matter who makes it, where and when, it is some non sensical, lame comment on how Bangalore is not a great city to stay in cuz of blah blah reasons...!! if you are a ‘localite’ as you would so often be addressed as (sometimes looked down upon for being one even!!), it would probably be justifiable.. People who just decided to descend upon a city in search of job opportunties without finding out what it has in store for them otherwise have, in my opinion, absolutely no right to make any negative remarks or comparisons! I am dead sure they would not like listening to similar things about their city either!! Every city has its pros and cons. And if you have evaluated a city badly, it is solely YOUR problem..!! Even god can’t promise you that any place (on earth atleast) is prefect, my dear fella!!


Insensitive creatures.
If you don’t care enough for/about anyone around you, I would rather not know you...


Spouses/Partners who do not realise that their counterparts need some time and space with friends, especially of the same gender!!, disgust me... If your husband doesn’t like you spending time or is insecure about your spending time with a female friend even if it is once in a way, I’m sorry, but the way I look at it, you have ended up with someone way too obsessed with god-knows-what and someone way too irritatingly possessive of you!!


Note: This is my list...

Disclaimer: Author is in an absolute no nonsense mood... If something in this list bears even slightest resemblence to your behavior towards her, then maybe it’s high time you realise that it was meant for just you to read..!


Tuesday, May 30, 2006

An year later...

from growing love to fears and races...
from reality to illusions??!
from what was to what is....
more steps backward than ahead...
from openin up to shutting her out...
from unmatched warmth to shivering cold..
from closest to far away...
from two to together and back..

from complements to differences...
from US to U and I..
jerky journey.. what say?
exciting? thrilling?

well...
the little girl must find her own way..
n she is still screaming out..
hmm...

****************************************************

a little girl playing in the garden
a little heart screaming out
held her hand, made her secure
loved her 'life',
her unrefined self...
stood beside her, dint let her wander away
stars shining, moon smiling..
passion, intimacy...
unmeasured depths...
urge to complete each other...
n d need to know.. n share
Seemed everlasting....
Culd'nt have asked for more...
Bang! Thud! Boom!
from a vulnerable mind to a vulnerable soul...

30-05-05


Hm.. now that u finished reading, It is one poem alright.. but was written in 2 halves as u might have already noticed.. the little secret is that, whichever half u read first, as a poem it still makes sense.. Try it..
A little wierd n not really ordinary.. Ahem! do I sound proud..? Well.. I am.. :)

On a more serious note, this is proly the most incomplete poem I ve ever written.. incomplete in every way. nothing more, nothing less..

Monday, May 15, 2006

Learnin to fly.....

the smell of rain still invigorates...
the sight of birds still spells freedom...
roses, smile as warmly as ever...
the sun sets most gracefully,
n those joyous colours always linger on..
stars glitter, marvellous as they are...
the moon beckons to a world beyond..
little drops of rain never fail to kiss me tender...
All along I thought it was you, my love..
you, who filled the air with that magic..
I know now, it's not you...

I'm in love... cuz of me....
My world is beautiful..
with or without ya...


ps: the title is that of a floydian song.. find the name very inspiring.. :)

Monday, October 24, 2005

dark inside..

where there is a beginning
but no end
where you dive into deeper depths
never to return ashore…

saturated with cynicism
saturated with the vigor of life…

where there is no mind, no body,
no soul
where memories haunt
and future fails to beckon…

where the dark appears bright,
fleeting moments of peace
bring stinging pain…

where hope plays its atrocious game,
long after you have lost all you can..
where it ceases to be the panacea...

where nothing remains
though nothing is taken
where everything fails to explain itself
everything fails to comprehend itself..

where welled-up hysteria begins
to give away

out of reach…??
out of sight…??

or jus say
tantalized.....................


08:30 pm
07-12-04


This is one of the darkest poems I have ever written..
As usual, it remains very special to me for many reasons.. :)

PS: 1. I generally refrain from naming my poems..
Hence, the title is for the post and not the poem itself..


2. This one is dedicated to one of those few people who enjoys
dark and ironical stuff.. Here is to ya, SUCH.. !! :)

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Incomplete...

Jaane kya dhoondta hai, ae mera dil..
Tujhko kya chaahiye zindagi.....

Have you ever wondered as to what (or should I say who ;) ) completes you...? That which you seem to have been looking for..? Oh! Wait.. In the first place have you ever felt incomplete..?? Ever felt that there is something that you should be having..?
Dont confuse this with the feeling of not being satisfied or the feeling of wanting more..
The one I am referring to is something like.. you have almost finished doing a jig-saw puzzle.. N you think you are getting there.. and you dont find the last piece!
No, its not your purpose in life..
not the goal you have sought out to achieve..
not that one thing you always wanted to do..
not your last wish.. not your ultimate ambition..
not that dream which you always wish would come true..
something beyond all that......
probably a deeper sense of 'your being'.. maybe what is called soulful..
something that you feel is a part of you and still is not with you..
something that you know is there and yet not quite..
hm.. dont know if you are with me..
If you still are (:D), go ahead..
To me falling in love is trying to find that something..
Trying to find that one last piece of yourself..
Wanting to share that one moment of glory, where you feel united with yourself, with that other being.. be it the same sex or otherwise..

This song from Madhumati sung by Lata Mangeshkar has so much more to it.. The tune is haunting.. mesmerizing.. And the lyrics will remain with you forever if you feel them in the song..

here are the lyrics for those of you who prefer it in the devanagiri script..
And
here are the lyrics in english.

I love the way she has sung it.. You can feel the pain in her voice..
Check it out..


PS: I wish Backstreet Boys had not used the title for their song.. Although, the song is pretty good, them using this as the title kinda spoilt the effect of the word itself.. :)


Thursday, September 29, 2005

Refresh!

Seizing her by her hand,
Looked into her doey eyes,
Warmly he met her lips with his;
A silvery smile watching them from above...

The sweetness of the twilight air,
The smiling tear-stained faces,
A bee gladly humming by
stopped a while, perplexed -
for, their hearts beat in unison...

They had lived apart a long while now,
Blown apart by the world,
The world of greed, anger and melancholy -
Well, they were destined to be together...

Bidding an adieu to them -
the people - his n hers,
Hand in hand, they went away -
Away from the races and all - to be human,
They rode away to their love.

dated: 21-08-2k

yup.. that is how I used to write 5 years ago.. :)
Can still relate to the feeling when I wrote it though..
We had Physics lab on this particular day.
And even as the lab-incharge gave us instructions to do
the experiments for the day, my mind was working on this piece.. :D
This is one poem that will remain very dear to me for more reasons than one!
Remembered it while seeing the sunsets the past
few days n today.. :)
A thing of beauty is a joy forever! ha?

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

What is Maturity?

I think Maturity is an over used word.. Often misunderstood, misconstrued… and more than half the people who believe that they are infact mature human beings are probably not aware of its significance, meaning or implications..
Anyway, take a look at the following piece.

Maturity is
1. Asking for help when you need it and acting on your own when you don’t.
2. Admitting when you are wrong and making amends.
3. Recognizing that you always have choices and taking responsibility for the ones you make.
4. Having an opinion without insisting that others share it and not letting this difference of opinion affect the regard or respect that you have for someone.
5. Having the courage to live one day at a time.
6. Seeing that life is a blessing.
7. Accepting that you will never be finished and you will always be a work-in-progress.

Dated 28-04-03
The Times Of India.

This has been something that has remained a benchmark for me ever since the day it was published.. And I think it aptly describes what maturity infact implies and demands someone to be..

1. How many of us actually ask for help when we need it..?? I have often seen people struggle to balance coffee mugs and breakfast plates and what not… when all they have to do is just ask for a helping hand from the person standing by, who is only punching his/her mobile.. :D
This would probably only be if we would not assume that people will/should volunteer to help us even when we pose like we don’t need it at all.. :)


2. This is something that tests your character if u ask me.. So many of us find it difficult to just say ‘am sorry’ even if it is oh-so obvious to everyone around that the fault lies with us.. Whether its a simple thing such as spilling a cup of coffee or something more complex like saying or doing something that hurts or annoys another, most of us tell ourselves that this is a part of the person we are and that the world around should only be ‘mature’ enough to accept us as we are... :) ‘C’mon! This is the way I am. Being a little clumsy or being a little hasty and insensitive sometimes, is not all that bad is it? ’ haven’t u heard that somewhere?? Is this complacence? Is this an excuse? Or am I being idealistic?

3. guess this kind of follows from 2..

4. a. Okie!! How many of us don’t do this at all??! Am not raising my hand either! :) For instance, I have had so many million people trying to convince me that Ms. Aishwarya Rai is indeed more beautiful than I think she is.. One guy even went to the extent of saying “you are not as good as her.. so, you are jealous and cant accept that she is so beautiful!”
my reaction??
@#$&#@*&@#%*&@#@%$% &^**$#$@$
but… Naaah!! I dint bother!
But well, what I guess is important, is to realize the fine difference between being assertive about your opinion and standing up for it (if required) and trying to enforce your opinion on someone…


b. The latter half of the same pointer is again very relatable to ha? He/she doesn’t have the same food habits as me or play the same sport or adore the same actor/actress, like the same channel, same television program… and so on and so forth and therefore I don’t like him/her.. Or he/she is not as good as me.. Or he/she is unspeakable to!!! The ability to accept differences and not let them affect relationships or affect the regard and respect for another individual is rather scarce in our world today.. what say?

5, 6 and 7 are rather big picture pointers.. shall leave them to the reader…

I would just like to add that the author concluded the above quoted piece by saying


“Are you a mature person today??”



Saturday, August 20, 2005

unweathered...

As one friend of mine rightly says, there are mostly just two kinds of friends.. the ‘fair weather’ ones and the ‘unfair weather’ ones..
Now, that is pretty self explanatory.. yes.. Let me try and explain what that means to me though..
To me, fair weather friends are simply those with whom u share ur longest laughter.. who bring joy to you.. who add spice to your life.. who are with you when you are happy and gay and all bubbling with energy, when u have ur best to present to the world.. when the sun shines and the moon smiles.. n the beautiful colors of the rainbow make your life seem more worth while.. in cheerful parties and merry making.. when all u want is to blow up ur cash.. when you know your life is so wow! that u could ask for no more.. when all goes well…
but these people would rather not be near u when u cant b your best...
…And u will find plenty of people of this type all around you..

And, Unfair weather ones are those friends who seem to always be there when you need a helping hand with life.. when u don’t seem to be able to manage on your own.. when u need a shoulder to cry on.. when u want someone to cling on to.. when u want to crib about all that has gone wrong and all that can.. when u want support and company to make you stable and sure of yourself.. when u want to define your purpose in life.. when u want to sort things out.. when u feel shaky and weak.. when u r down and low.. n everything seems out of place..

but these people cant for anything in the world realize that u r more than just a pile of sorrows and that ur lows are not the only things that define you or ur life..
…And you will find a fair number of such buddies as well..

And then there are those friends who are jus there… always..
Through thick and thin and in the right sense of that phrase..
For whom life is but incomplete without you..

who live a part of your life for you..
Those angels who make every day sunny and bright by just being a part of it.. who make life an absolutely wonderful and enriching experience.. whose thoughts revolve around not just their own lives but yours as well.. who are friends for the sake of friendship..

who stick with you in fair and unfair times…with whom u have laughed and cried.. with whom u can be completely yourself and not when u r happy or down, but always..
who can feel happier for you than you can feel for yourself and who can also get into your shoes when u cant handle it alone.. who complete ur life.. whom nature has destined to set examples.. to be role models.. who know u in and out.. the way u know urself and want to be known.. who mean more to u than u can ever describe.. who symbolize the 'ultimate friendship' if there were to be one such thing.. :) with whom u wanna live and die.. and who are simply larger than life..


"...no one can ever know me..
no one can ever see me..
since u r the only one who knows what its like to be me...."
- Rembrants

this is my salute to the few such people in my life..
who are irreplaceable..
who are a part of me and will always be…
who r my greatest assets..

thank you..
I may not say this often.. but u know what u r to me..

life is beautiful only cuz of you.. :)

PS: this one is for you sweetheart.. I would never have known what friendship is if I hadn’t known you..

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Memories of a Village City.

As the train pulled into the station slowly, several fond memories of my destination ran through my mind. During the journey I recalled how I would always end up eating ‘madduru vade’, ‘kadle kai’ and ‘sapota’ , when I was much younger and how I would religiously throw little coins into the two branches of Kaveri and how I would play with any person who would happen to be anywhere close to our seats! The short ride in the rickshaw reminded me of days when I would pester my mom or whoever else would accompany me (he he!) to call for a Tonga guy. Horses always fascinated me. And so did bumpy Tonga rides :)

For several years, the city of my birth, Mysore, was my summer and winter holiday destination (any other school break longer than a week would qualify as a vacation as well :D) and no vacation was probably ever complete with a whole lot of visits all around the city. Visits to the Zoo, the KRS dam and Brindavan gardens, Chamundi Betta, the Palace and Art Gallery were a half yearly or atleast an yearly affair. Not to forget looting mom n dad at the Dussera Exhibition every year. He he he!! Somehow buying kutti coloured umbrellas, little bags, and wooden toys during every visit to the KRS dam or exhibition became mandatory.

Being the first grand daughter at my maternal grand parents place, I was this totally pampered kid.. and man, I enjoyed it!
Still do.. :)

My uncles and aunts awaited my going there, as soon as my annual exams got over. As a little kid, guess I was pretty mischievous. And a total source of entertainment to everyone around... he he! My family runs a printing press there, which used to be a type press before and I would try and compose lines for them using metallic letters and would make such a mess! Supposed to have composed one whole debit voucher (which for some reason I thot was debitocher!) and without any mistakes at the age of 9 or 10.. :)
Going to the ‘city’, as the business oriented localities of the place are called, on the luna (yes, mysore was and even today, is typically known for the unbelievable number of lunas of various models that u would have never ever seen in Bangalore!!) and riding back, sitting on the reams of paper and the like, that were purchased was, for me, a total treat! Visiting the several client factories to receive and deliver orders was another fun activity then.
Playing with ever so newly bought badminton rackets in the evenings with all the grown ups in the house was a matter of pride :D The Saraswathi Puram Park or the lovely ‘kukkarahalli kere’ and manasa gangothri campus were among favorite evening haunts.

Well, I could go on forever about everything associated with this wonderful place and I would still have things left to say and describe!! My little visit this week made me realize how much those days have helped shape me as a person. Although, Long walks on lovely roads were a part of my routine this time as well… honestly, I missed school and missed summer hols even more.. :(
Sadly, the place has started getting the busy and oh-so-corporate feel of Bangalore, with food worlds and coffee days coming into the city (no thanks to the advent of infosys and wipro and the like) More ‘scooties’ move around than dear old 'lunas'. Cyber cafes have become a matter of every galli, although thankfully not as much as Bangalore.
Being not so advanced and yet so cultured has always been characteristic of Mysore and this according to me makes it as unique as it is and truly a retired man’s paradise.
A place certainly worth being in.
And a place that will always be my little haven.
Hope to go back there more often and probably even for ever, much later :)

PS: I dedicate this blog to my family in Mysore - thatha, ammamma, mama's, athe's and the 4 little ones... :)

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

holi!!

In the last 4 years of my engineering life this was the first time I played Holi and that too with my class mates. We had a great time as you would expect.. :D
The best part was that it was all totally unplanned and a total spur of the moment thing.
The previous night a friend called me when I was out and told me very briefly indeed to just get a change of clothes coz we were going to play Holi the next day!! like wow! totally unexpected! :D
The following morning, all of us (about 9 girls) got together in college and went there on to a friend’s house which is pretty close to college. We bought colours to play with on our way to her place. We had all ‘nicely’ dressed up in old clothes, all set to have some fun!! :)
And soon we got into the act of throwing lovely colours n smearing the faces of all those we recognized around us with whatever colour we could get on our hands!
This other friend of mine and I had the most fun I guess.. :D simply coz we weren’t fussy at all n enjoyed everything that was splashed on us.. Of course the others soon caught on to the feel of it and began to revel in it!!
We were also joined by a bunch of guys n girls who were our friend’s (the hostess) brother’s friends.. These guys have their board exams coming up this week and yet were out on the street merry making!! Cheers to the spirit of holi!!
Honestly, never had so much fun on Holi before. Always dreaded going out on the street coz I feared being coloured by those scary looking faces driving by on bikes (again scary looking ones!).
Happy to say its not so any more… :)
All these years, I always got sort of wild at the thought of some unknown hands making me look ugly with some disgusting colours.. chee! yuck! that’s how I thought of it all!
Well…. am sorry I did..
although I am still not comfy with the thought of some random person on the road doing stuff like that, am sure I will enjoy celebrating this festival of vivid beauty from now on.. N hopefully I will be in the company of good old friends too in the coming years! :)

And of course, am still colourful from head to toe! :)

PS: I burst out laughing today when I realized I had a pink navel… he he!!

Oops! the darker shade...

Well.. It was Holi and all of us except this one friend of ours was not very comfy letting her hair down and enjoying with us. She could not afford to get drenched in the holi water.. Poor girl had her periods running. Wait!! Got grossed out?!!
Oh! why am I not surprised?!
Well.. that’s exactly what I wanna talk about now..!
How narrow minded people are about this whole thing!!
After all the rejoicing with the beautiful colours, this friend of mine asked our hostess if she could change stuff..
N ridiculously enough she quite flatly refused!!
I for one was disgusted! N the reason she gave was that her mom may not like it or that it was a big problem to dispose things at her place or some such thing!!
Where would our poor friend go?!
Even the college rest rooms are not open after a point on any day! Despite having evening college classes running every day too in our college..!! Its ridiculous!
why cant these basic things be understood by people who run institutions such as ours?!
I mean it hardly takes another hour or more for students to vacate college campus! But no, they have to bloody close it an hour before time! coz the people who lock the place are tired the whole day looking at the faces that have come in n gone out! Whatever!!
Being women, I thought it was even more than just being immature on my friend’s and her mother’s part about the whole thing!! And obviously no one protested or said a word about it, except me and another friend of mine, who asked her why? another time..
When she failed to be reasonable again, I gave up, simply coz we had had a good time till then n dint wanna spoil it with a controversial debate! che!!
But, am still very annoyed…..
Our host, mind you is the topper of our class this time!
And she comes from quite an educated n cultured family… so to say..
But well, whats education if it cant give one enough sense and maturity to handle something so mundane and still so important??
whats with all this discomfort talking about it?
Gimme a break!! Will ya?

More n more ‘educated’ folk talk about how you should be open enough to discuss about SEX these days.. But if it comes to discussing this, people (especially men.. am sorry if u r one, but that’s what the case is!) are not one bit comfy talk about this issue..
I mean, what is the damn reason??
They cant relate to it, like the way they can to ‘sex’, that’s why?!
Excuse me! U r here coz someone out there went through all that pain, mood swings, weariness and what not other discomfort for years!! N finally conceived you and gave birth to you (which I hear is even more painful!!).
Oh C mon!! where did all your ‘broad mindedness’ suddenly vanish?!!!
And women, wake up!!
Come out of your lousy shells and let people know that its none of their business to treat something that happens to you every 30 days with such callousness! , whether its other women (unfortunately!) or men..
Not like u have to announce stuff, but when you r undergoing pain n u need some support, let people know!
AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, please think twice when u deal with this the next time around… For, Christ’s sake, just put yourself in ‘her’ shoes for once and Think..! (yes, all those of u women who don’t think, please do!!) n then u will know why I am saying all this………



PS : the order of these two blogs r meant to be so..

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

one of my faves

The following is something that I wrote quite a long time back...
There is probaby more to it than what appears at first glance..


what if you know that I care...
what if you know that I'll be right there
when you need me, even if you haven't
called out to me..
what if you know that you'll never
understand me...
what if you know that there is something
about me that haunts you..
..that keeps you curious all the time...
what if you know that I set you free..
..that i let you be..
what if you know that I know you..
what if you know that I make you
feel wanted.. and needed..
what if you know that I make you
feel loved..
... that I love you...
You wont love me back, will you?