Jaane tu.. ya jaane na...

Chingaari koi bhadke tho
saawan use bhujaaye.. saawan jo agan lagaye...
mind, a butterfly
yet not light or free
celebrating anniversaries for debacles
moments of sheer joy and ecstasy
love is to surrender..
there’s a place right there which is mine
entangled.. estranged.. evasive..
shyness still beams from her charming face
softly caressed.. yet deeply bruised..
never christened..
from you and I to US..
never let me go..
rejuvenate.. embellish.. entice..
am in a trance.. Are you too?

baneful bliss

you made me come alive, baby
and made me lose all my faith...

you made me feel like am more beautiful than I ever thought I was
and made me hate my own reflection..

you told me I was perfect
and found countless flaws in me...

you made me smile, like never before
and left me with tears..

you knew me..
yet you misunderstood...

you made me feel the bliss of being loved
yet never loved me...

fooled? bewildered? betrayed?
disillusioned? neglected?

maybe a million kinds of love..
need the kind that only U can give me..
Or so I believed..

April 1st, 2007 :)

in the end, it doesnt even matter...

u pampered me..
put me up in the sky...
added colour.. vigour..
gave me feathers and wings..
and taught me how to fly..

crossing mountains and barriers...
rivers and bridges..
spanning miles and beyond,
reached where I thought I belonged..
and looked around....

u showed me the darker skies..
took away my smile..
and my true self from me...

abyss.. illusions.. cosmetics...
dark comparisons.. distances..
meaningless excuses..
away and gone is away and gone..
If there was just one thing u could do,
it was left undone..

and knowingly u flew away..
moved to more hueful shores..
my guiding light switched off..
lost....



28-02-07
11:50 PM

An year later...

from growing love to fears and races...
from reality to illusions??!
from what was to what is....
more steps backward than ahead...
from openin up to shutting her out...
from unmatched warmth to shivering cold..
from closest to far away...
from two to together and back..
from complements to differences...
from US to U and I..
jerky journey.. what say?
exciting? thrilling?
well...
the little girl must find her own way..
n she is still screaming out..
hmm...

****************************************************

a little girl playing in the garden
a little heart screaming out
held her hand, made her secure
loved her 'life',
her unrefined self...
stood beside her, dint let her wander away
stars shining, moon smiling..
passion, intimacy...
unmeasured depths...
urge to complete each other...
n d need to know.. n share
Seemed everlasting....
Culd'nt have asked for more...
Bang! Thud! Boom!
from a vulnerable mind to a vulnerable soul...

30-05-05


Hm.. now that u finished reading, It is one poem alright.. but was written in 2 halves as u might have already noticed.. the little secret is that, whichever half u read first, as a poem it still makes sense.. Try it..
A little wierd n not really ordinary.. Ahem! do I sound proud..? Well.. I am.. :)

On a more serious note, this is proly the most incomplete poem I ve ever written.. incomplete in every way. nothing more, nothing less..

Learnin to fly.....

the smell of rain still invigorates...
the sight of birds still spells freedom...
roses, smile as warmly as ever...
the sun sets most gracefully,
n those joyous colours always linger on..
stars glitter, marvellous as they are...
the moon beckons to a world beyond..
little drops of rain never fail to kiss me tender...
All along I thought it was you, my love..
you, who filled the air with that magic..
I know now, it's not you...
I'm in love... cuz of me....
My world is beautiful..
with or without ya...


ps: the title is that of a floydian song.. find the name very inspiring.. :)

dark inside..

where there is a beginning
but no end
where you dive into deeper depths
never to return ashore…

saturated with cynicism
saturated with the vigor of life…

where there is no mind, no body,
no soul
where memories haunt
and future fails to beckon…

where the dark appears bright,
fleeting moments of peace
bring stinging pain…

where hope plays its atrocious game,
long after you have lost all you can..
where it ceases to be the panacea...

where nothing remains
though nothing is taken
where everything fails to explain itself
everything fails to comprehend itself..

where welled-up hysteria begins
to give away

out of reach…??
out of sight…??

or jus say tantalized.....................


08:30 pm
07-12-04

This is one of the darkest poems I have ever written..
As usual, it remains very special to me for many reasons.. :)

PS: 1. I generally refrain from naming my poems..
Hence, the title is for the post and not the poem itself..

2. This one is dedicated to one of those few people who enjoys
dark and ironical stuff.. Here is to ya, SUCH.. !! :)

Refresh!

Seizing her by her hand,
Looked into her doey eyes,
Warmly he met her lips with his;
A silvery smile watching them from above...

The sweetness of the twilight air,
The smiling tear-stained faces,
A bee gladly humming by
stopped a while, perplexed -
for, their hearts beat in unison...

They had lived apart a long while now,
Blown apart by the world,
The world of greed, anger and melancholy -
Well, they were destined to be together...

Bidding an adieu to them -
the people - his n hers,
Hand in hand, they went away -
Away from the races and all - to be human,
They rode away to their love.

dated: 21-08-2k

yup.. that is how I used to write 5 years ago.. :)
Can still relate to the feeling when I wrote it though..
We had Physics lab on this particular day.
And even as the lab-incharge gave us instructions to do
the experiments for the day, my mind was working on this piece.. :D
This is one poem that will remain very dear to me for more reasons than one!
Remembered it while seeing the sunsets the past
few days n today.. :)
A thing of beauty is a joy forever! ha?

poetry at work..

tranquil inside
spell bound or otherwise
haunting sounds of silence
joy of companionship?
forever alone?
wavering minds...
mad lillies tossing their heads...
xtension of your 'self' or more?
married to yourself?
romancing with your ego?
and yet a battle of the 'selves'??
hold your hands,
touch your heart,
promise yourself,
you'll always be you...
and more........


09-08-05

ps: my first peom at work.. during a training session, to be more precise... :)

An untitled blog

A song full of sorrow..
A mundane life..
A want for more..
An anger unhidden..*
A chance that was never taken..
A horse never ridden..
Fragile thoughts..
A dream unfinished..
An incomplete note..
An unlearnt moral..
A story unwritten..
A page unturned..
Unspoken fear..
A broken arrow..
A sword unused..
A mind unexplored..
A hunger for raw flesh..
A bird unable to fly..
A law unadhered to.. *
Memories of nothing..
An unfinished masterpiece..
Today begins and Tomorrow dies..?

* dunno if these words actually exist.. n I dont care if they dont.. they fit into my lines n I like them like that.

offlate, I have written lots of dark and wierd stuff. this one is the latest in the series.. :) why? how? dunno my answers this time.....

ps: have noticed that there has not been a single comment on this entire blog! proly cuz the content drives away the comments.. or maybe its me who drives them away.. as usual.. :D but well, I really wud appreciate any kinda suggestions, remarks or anything else posted. Thank you. :)

forever mine..

walking back home,
after a long tiring day…

see him beside me
smiling reassuringly…
he looks irresistible, as always!
fighting the temptation
to look at him,
I look down and smile
to myself…

How could I have forgotten him?!
he fills me with delight…
makes me jump with joy…
he makes me want to hold him..
and run after him…
he makes me want to dream!
he has seen me through thick and thin…
loved me every moment…

he is the only star of my every night..
call me a lunatic if u want!
meet my forever companion, the moon.

one of my faves

The following is something that I wrote quite a long time back...
There is probaby more to it than what appears at first glance..


what if you know that I care...
what if you know that I'll be right there
when you need me, even if you haven't
called out to me..
what if you know that you'll never
understand me...
what if you know that there is something
about me that haunts you..
..that keeps you curious all the time...
what if you know that I set you free..
..that i let you be..
what if you know that I know you..
what if you know that I make you
feel wanted.. and needed..
what if you know that I make you
feel loved..
... that I love you...
You wont love me back, will you?